more tales of a therapy nothing

[rkt]

So..

after thinking about it long and hard, i decided not to stick with the original therapist. sometimes, nothing is better than something. if i'm going into therapy knowing that she is prone to focusing on herself (the language correction thing, the "i have to do that too" in response to my complaints about the structure of education) it's just not what i want right now.

of all the places where i have to police making sure my needs are being met, therapy should be among the last of them.

so i called/emailed back to say as such. skipping over everything and explaining we weren't a good click. i re-stated information as far as fees/schedule goes. emailed the quasi-outline of what i'm hoping for in a therapist. and was told sorry, the referral place can't help me.

they sent me 2 links, one of which clearly states on the home page that they are not a match for me fee or schedule wise. (or style wise, but now who's counting?) the other place, i called, can't help me directly, but they did give me one referral to someone who *might* work. but i have to contact them and have a conversation, first.

this can wait until monday.

the guy at the second referral source wanted to know why i only want every other week. there are lots of reasons, but for the most part, i'm just not *there* for every week. i'm not about to set myself up for failure. his response was something about the return being proportional to the investment. and what? i'm giving you all i've got here (captain).

therapying should not be such a hot mess.

i'm considering yoga as a back up plan. i have suggestions from a reliable source. i'm not opposed to supplementing yoga in addition to therapy, if that works, too. i just don't know.

Comments

[kaygigi.livejournal.com]

Among the many reasons I'm not in therapy, finding a good therapist is one of them.
I'm glad you ended the therapy relationship, though, it didn't sound productive. Can't stick with things if they're not productive/helpful/healthful.

Mostly I'm commenting because I haven't commented on your other posts regarding therapy drama, and I wanted to let you know I've been reading them and considering them. :)

[rkt.livejournal.com]

thanks.

[liveavatar.livejournal.com]

Finding a good therapist really *is* a hot mess, no two ways about it. But once you've found someone with whom you resonate who can also help you, it's totally worth it.

Good luck with the slog. Yoga's helpful either way. (Actually, thanks for the reminder to start it up again myself.)

[rkt.livejournal.com]

i'm focusing on the future to get me through the therapy mess.