your rainbow connection

some people are believers. i am not one of them. i am the doubter and questioner. the one who asks why why why?

you know that "if everyone jumped off a cliff, would you?" question? i never understood it because no. i wouldn't i'd stop and try to figure out what the fuck was going on, first. maybe this would mean getting et by the big bad wolf. maybe this would mean i wouldn't fall into the lion's den or snake's pit. so my belief in a big giant god type person being is a bit complicated.

i mean, i guess there might be a big giant being that sits back and watches shit go down. it's actually easier to believe that zie doesn't have control, because if they did, they'd have to be seriously sadistic and i'm happier believing in a non-sadistic being than a sadistic one.

also, there might be nothing up in the sky but air.

and maybe not.

i also don't believe in karma. looking around the world, it doesn't add up enough. and there is so much inbalance. there might be incarnation. there might not. souls might exist. they might not. again, these are great things to think about, but i live now and my actions are based on the tangible of the past, future, and present in this now.

but i Am a dreamer.

today would have been jim henson's birthday. when he says: When I was young, my ambition was to be one of the people who made a difference in this world. My hope is to leave the world a little better for having been there. is so spot on.

i try not to hurt people. this is not always a success, but it's the goal. i do want to make the world a better place, if only one little corner of it. corners make blocks which make cities which grow from there. we can do this.

i don't believe that prison, and certainly not the death penalty, are the answers to solve "the crime problem". i know that taking care of citizens will drastically that. people will still always break the law. prison as a retribution is asinine. prison as rehabilitation at least creates a potential for change.

people's bodies are their own. criminalizing drug use when others are not affected just creates criminals. fetuses are not people. i'll consider giving you pre-people. not really. but i can pretend. but they are not people. nobody should be forced into carrying a fetus around in their body for almost a year.

my beliefs on guns/control is again, murky. i think NYC goes OD on their gun control stance. i think that like drug laws, gun control laws disproportionately affect certain, disempowered, segments of society.

my cynicism is only eclipsed by my ability to choose to believe in change. as much angst as humanity gives me, i do believe in people. most of the time, anyway.


( that one meme )

Using only episode names from one TV show, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat an episode title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My life according to [ Arrested Development]

( cut because i'm also putting this on the FB )

[Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 (or some other number of) people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)]

You are all tagged.

1. Facebook confounds me. (They don't even consider "facebook" a word.)

2. I still keep coming back anyway. I'm sure they have a word for that.

3. I have latent non-asthma related breathing issues.

4. They become more apparent when I try to swim.

5. I say "try" because I am engaged in lessons. Never mind the tot-class before me has members who can outperform me.
( cut to spare your f-list )

from armchairshrink

Leave me a comment and I will reply with at least one reason why I like you or one thing I like about you. If I feel I don't know you well enough for that, I'll tell you why I like your LiveJournal or, at least, why I added you as a friend. You must pay for the privilege by posting a message like this one on your LiveJournal (unless, of course, you already did)."

at least 2 of you have done this already. i'm surprised certain ones of you haven't jumped on the wagon yet, already.

1) Copy this list into your blog or journal, including these instructions.
2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating.
4) Optional extra: Post a comment here at www.verygoodtaste.co.uk linking to your results.
( mmmmm foood )

from hope_persists


lolling. i never posted the 1930s house spouse meme. but this one also makes me lol.

Your Boy Side

[x] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[x] Shopping is torture. With the possible exception of Grocery shopping.
[] Sad movies suck.
[] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[>] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. (i'm giving myself a half-point for Voltron obsession.)
[] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[] You go to your dad for advice. (well, i did)
[] You own a trillion baseball caps.
[] You like going to football games.
[] You used to/do collect baseball cards. (while i chased the po-lice to get them, it was more about the pestering than the collecting. no point awarded.)
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers.

Total: 13.5

Your Girl Side
[] You wear lip gloss.
[] You love to shop.
[] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[] You wear the color pink.
[] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[] You like hanging out at the mall.
[] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[] You like wearing jewelry.
[] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[] You care about what you look like.
[] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

total: 6

return of the movie meme- now with answers (AND IMDB links*!)


1. "How many times do I have to tell you? You don't put a bra in a dryer! It warps!" leodios Hedwig and the Angry Inch

2. "How do you shoot the devil in the back? What if you miss?" burntherich (and twofeetcia) The Usual Suspects

3. "Look at this! "Baby Born with Two Heads"... must be from Brooklyn." twofeetcia Newsies

4. "If I wasn't a transvestite terrorist, would you marry me?" thinlikestick Breakfast on Pluto

5. "I know a doctor who might be able to help you." Edward Scissorhands

6. "Excuse me, I believe you have my stapler... " kaygigi Office Space

7. "You're an interesting species. An interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams, and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable, is each other." bluebuckeye (and twofeetcia) Contact

8. "I'm proud of my geekdom, God dammit!" Foxfire

9. "More people will come if they think we have punch and pie." twofeetcia Southpark

10. "It's hard being a man. And it's difficult being a woman. But the most difficult thing is trying not to forget who you really want to be." Beautiful Boxer

movie meme from bluebuckeye

A. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.

B. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.

C. Post them here for everyone to guess.

D. Italicize when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie. (Striking out makes it hard for people to read.)
i'll repost with answers in about a week

1. "How many times do I have to tell you? You don't put a bra in a dryer! It warps!" leodios Hedwig and the Angry Inch

2. "How do you shoot the devil in the back? What if you miss?" burntherich (and twofeetcia) Usual Suspects

3. "Look at this! "Baby Born with Two Heads"... must be from Brooklyn." twofeetcia Newsies

4. "If I wasn't a transvestite terrorist, would you marry me?" thinlikestick Breakfast on Pluto

5. "I know a doctor who might be able to help you."

6. "Excuse me, I believe you have my stapler... " kaygigi Office Space

7. "You're an interesting species. An interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams, and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable, is each other." bluebuckeye (and twofeetcia) Contact

8. "I'm proud of my geekdom, God dammit!"

9. "More people will come if they think we have punch and pie." twofeetcia Southpark

10. "It's hard being a man. And it's difficult being a woman. But the most difficult thing is trying not to forget who you really want to be."

borrowed...



if i recall correctly, she lives in california.

this is good, because a). there can be only one, at least nearby. and, b). dopplegangers keep putting their pics on the internet and c). real live folks apparently not only share my first name and birth month, but also my general life path.

this is how it works: comment on this entry and i will give you a letter. write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

R-

Rhubarb. whip it into jams or pie and it's scrumdiddlyumptious. i grew up on the shit. but don't eat it Raw!

Rump. some people's are better than othes. this is just a fact.

Responsible. something i hope to pretend to be better at someday. for now, life just moves.

Revolution. it will not be televised.

Rye. as in bread. as in my breakfast yesterday was rye toast, 2 eggs (fried over easy), home fries, and sausage. $3.00. yes, this was in manhattan.

Ray/s. the sun and i do not get along. it's not my fault.

Read. my favourite hobby. everyone should read.

River. a body of water. i like bodies of water. i'm drawn to bodies of water. but that's another story to tell.

Rage. (see also: roar). some people call this "bitching". but, really, rage is that which fuels many of my fires. this is not a bad thing.

Reject. noun or verb? as noun would be me. as verb would be mean.