rkt | so it goes

why is it that people don't understand when i say "there's nothing else going on"? especially when there is nothing else going on ???

i told stalker/crush boy i suspected he was still holding off for hopes of something more. (which he spent his time denying and then admitting to and then denying again.) so i thought it best if i stopped talking to him, since continuing conversations might only lead him on.

this, of course, really means that I'm secretly afraid that I will end up hoping for something more. and even falling in love.
with him.

or, so i have been informed.

why didn't i think of that?
this was pretty much the type of response i was expecting though.

i ask myself again, how the fuck do i end up with in things ?

but, in theory, it is all over.
and for the record, he never had a chance in hell of ever getting any.

bah.